J is for Jealousy. Want a harmful defect of character and is one of the 7 deadly sins I believe. It only hurts you. It is hurtful when you are the recipient of it, but it is a soul sickness when you act out on the emotion.
So often we think we want what someone else has, not realizing that what they have may not be good for you. It is a program of suggestion, each of us have to find a program that works for us instead of piggybacking on someone else's recovery. Even if it is our sponsor's, it will surely fail for us. I found that I had to go to meetings and get input and taking what I needed for my own recovery, even from those who I couldn't identify with. They say put it on the shelf, but I don't like dusting.
Instead of always taking, we need to give. Pray and ask your Higher Power for wht you need and He will put it in your path.
