Thankyou, I hope there is something I can figure out to just keep them away from me so over time maybe I can control my urge. I've become a master safe cracker thinking locking them up would stop me. I just wish I was different. I'm a good person minus my addiction but it's becoming hard for myself to believe that .
This is long, but I just wanted to share it with you my sister, God bless and happy New Year. Wayne. W.O.W. 101
There are some people that I'm in awe of. They are always in a good mood and always have something positive to say. My ex Mother in Law is one of these people I have had the fortune of having in my life. Every time I would ask her how she was doing, she would reply, "If I were any better, I would be twins!" She was a natural spiritual motivator. While visiting her one of many times my son was having a particular negative and all around bad day. I was beside myself on how to handle him. She asked me if she could have a talk with him and I said a definite, "YES." I watched her go to him as I had seen her do with so many others around her and with her amazing grace and humbleness she started quietly talking with him. I could not hear what she was saying but within minutes he immediately became calmer and went about his day with a positive outlook and seemed to be glowing the rest of that day and many more days after that.
Having a particular bad day myself once I finally went to her and in and almost in tears said to her, " I don't get it! You can't be a positive person all of the time. How do you do it? What's your secret of being such a positive person every day?"She replied to me, "There's no secret Hon, each morning I wake up and say to myself, I have two choices today. I can choose to be in a good mood or I can choose to be in a bad mood. So every day I choose to be in a good mood. Each time something bad happens in my life I can choose to be a victim or I can choose to learn from it. I choose to learn from it. Every time someone complains I can choose to accept their complaining or I can point out the positive side of life.
"Choose the positive side of life every day? Yeah, right, it's not that easy," I protested. "
Yes, it is,"She said."Life is all about choices. When you cut away all the junk, every situation is a choice. You choose how you react to all situations.
You can choose how people affect your mood. You can choose to be in a good mood or a bad mood. The bottom line is it's your choice how you live your life."
I have reflected on what she shared with me many days since then.
I think of her often sometimes daily especially when I've not made a positive choice upon wakening. I often start my days over during the day as did my son that day and make a choice about living a positive day and then I act in life instead of reacting to it. I then remember that I do have the choice to live fully. Thank you God for giving me the gift of choice. Thank God for my Ex Mother in Law who taught me how to live. Attitude, after all, is everything. "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.
Each day has enough troubles of its own." After all today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday.