Just for today, I will forgive myself for not coming on line earlier and not posting. Last night I was running a fever and haven't been feeling up to par. I only had my TV on for about 2 hours all day, to watch The Voice result show and Jeopardy.

I know I always feel better as a result of being here, but the body just couldn't get up and rise to the occasion.

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Just for today, I will choose sobriety. I will enjoy the moment, even if it is just doing dishes, cooking dinner, and taking a walk to the Pharmacy. I put garbage down the chute and heard my friend Barb talking at the elevator and went to say hello. She saw the dark bruise on my arm and asked what happened to me. I said I fell into a wall, not sure really what it was, I have been losing my balance a lot lately. She saw my son come in the building and asked him if he had seen my arm and did he cause it. He said she tries to be funny, but it wasn't, especially when people are around.

I have three medications that say "May cause dizziness." So I guess I am just a ditz!

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Just for today, I will trust in my Higher Power to see me through each day. He meets my needs, yet I must remember to pick them up. They are there, I just have to be open to receive.

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Just for today, I will enjoy the bountiful gifts of nature. I will make a conscious effort to connect and apprecate the Creators many blessings. These are beautiful and it is nice to fill up your space with good things, but like to seem them in their natural state.

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Just for today, I will accept what is. I have been in a lot of pain today. As they say, "We are where me are as a result of decisions made." I made the decision to wear a pair of black flats instead of my orthonics. No support, like walking on the sidewalk with cardboard soles Ouch.

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Just for today, I will go with the flow and accept what is, knowing it is subject to change. Things will change, it is up to me to do my part. Sometimes my part is just to recognize what is and just allow my God to work His Will with my life.

Today I am having problems typing without makiing errors. This is something I have problems with, but I know it is my tremon disorder, plus the fact that I think I have some kind of virus as I have been playing Queen of the House for most of the day, sitting on my Throne.

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Just for today, I am still working on acceptance. I missed my AA meeting today and my Al-Anon meeting yesterday. I am meeting up with a friend 11 hours from now to do brunch and go shopping for my sister's birthday present. I am hoping my body will be able to keep up. I am hoping to get more sleep and rest before then. If I don't sleep before 8 a.m., I will have to call and cancel the trip with Darts. What ever will be will be. If I am meant to go, it will happen. I will just have to give my body and my mind a little talking to.

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Just for today, I will put some gratitude in my attitude. Grateful for good fun and frolic with a good friend, which lead to a very good day.

They say, "If you have gratitude, show it." Don't just talk about it. I certainly can't take it for granted. It is truly a gracious gift.

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Just for today, I will trust the process. Things will unfold as they should, not always as I would have them be. It was nice to run into my friend downtown. I came home, decided to go and get the special on bottled water $1.88 for 24 and bought two and bathroom tissue was $3.99 for 12 rolls. I ended up spending over $100. because I bought a fan and some vitamins. I went back down to the pharmacy and she was there and we came home together.

When in doubt, look around and see what is happening with your life. It is a good day for me when I connect with others and I go with the flow, instead of running away from home and trying to make things happen. When I do, I don't make that spiritual connection with others.

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Just for today, I will be myself. I will not role play and be something I am not to impress others. What you see is what you get. It was a great day in recovery when the insides matched the outside.

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Just for today, I am glad that it will be over in 4 hours and 1 minutes. It has been a hurting day.

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Just for today, I am grateful for the people in my life. Today I had brunch with a friend who insisted on paying and a visit from a long time friend when I got home.

Grateful for both these ladies, have known them for over 20 years. One I knew 50 years ago and then she went one way and I went another, so very grateful that we reconnected.

I am so grateful for the people my God put in my life, be it for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. My favourite piece of prose.

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Just for today, I am lowering my expectations and not being hard on myself for not doing what I know I `should`do. I am just not up to meeting them mentally and physically, so I am going to treat myself with some TLC, and just do the best I can in the moment.

I have a foot doctor`s appointment tomorrow and I am hoping to make it to my AA meeting. It doesn`t give me a lot of time and the specialist isn`t always on time and I don`t get in right away. If need be, I will take a taxi to the meeting as I have missed the last two weeks, because of doctor`s appointments and pain.

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Just for today, I will give thanks. The sun has come out, so it just has to be a wonderful day. I do regret not going back to bed when I woke up, here it is an hour and a half, and I want to go back to sleep.

It is suppose to be hot today. That is good, my body loves the heat! I will be grateful for what is in the moment, knowing it is subject to change.

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Just for today, I will practice the principles in ALL my affairs. It isn't about drinking and drugging in today, it is about my emotional sobriety and not substituting other things for my drug of choice. Just for today, I choose to be clean and sober. Sobriety means 'soundness of mind.' Learn to identify, not compare.

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Just for today, I will not run from life's problems. I will give thanks and put gratitude in my attitude. I will try to learn life's lesson as I travel through this world. I am listening to the song River Road. So glad I don't have to go there in today.

Crystal Gayle

River Road Lyrics

Here I go once again
With my suitcase in my hand
And I'm running away down River Road
And I swear, once again, that I'm never coming home
Yes, I'm chasing my dreams down River Road

Mama said, listen child
You're too old to run wild
You're to big to be fishin' with the boys these days

So I grabbed some clothes and I ran
Stole five dollars from a sugar can
A twelve year old jail breaker runnin' away

Here I go once again
With my suitcase in my hand
And I'm running away down River Road
And I swear, once again, that I'm never coming home
I'm chasing my dreams down River Road

Well, I married a pretty good man
And he tries to understand
But he knows I've got leavin' on my mind these days

When I get that urge to roam
I'm just like a kid again
The same old jail breaker runnin' away

Here I go once again
With my suitcase in my hand
And I'm running away down River Road
And I swear, once again, that I'm never coming home
I'm chasing my dreams down River Road.

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Just for today, I will remember the slogans and apply them to my life. For today, the one that comes to mind is "Easy does it!....but do it!"

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Just for today, I will pray for the health and welfare of friends and family. I can't always be there for them, but I can take time to pray.

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Just for today, I will set a goal. I will lower my expectations and make the goal attainable and pray and ask for help to do my God's Will for me in today. My goal is to make it to my Al-Anon meeting. At the moment, it is pouring rain. I can't push a walker and carry an umbrella at the same time. The weather channel says sunshine, so I will try to walk in faith.

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Just for today, I will let go of my anger. This Step isn't a one time deal for me, it is on going. I work Step 10 daily, but to my way of thinking, often what happens in today has a root and trigger that is linked to a past issue.

When I am aware that something is wrong, I do a meditation and ask for the knowing that I need to change and let go of what is causing my pain. So often emotions make themselves known physically. I can't, my God can, and it is up to me to turn things over into His Care. I don't want to go around acting out my anger by having hissy fits.

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Just for today, I will follow the Good Orderly Direction for my life. Each day I start with the Serenity Prayer and put my day in the hands of my Higher Power. I follow it up with the Third and Seventh Step prayer, so I can get out of the way and allow my HP to speak through me instead of around me or as my ex-sponsee use to say, "Is God hitting you over the head with a spiritual cast iron frying pan?"

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Just for today, I will practice patience and tolerance. I can't get into an old e-mail address. Someone sent important information there and I just can't remember the password and when I try for tech support, according to them, I am not in existance. Will try again.

Patience is a virtue, have it if you can. I heard that for years, guess I am lacking in today.

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Just for today, we are back on acceptance. I am hoping to go down to the mall to meet my friend and hope I won't have the problems I had yesterday. I am also operating on 2 hours sleep, so will see how it goes. I have some grocery shopping to do and I am meeting a friend for coffee.

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Just for today, I will turn my day over to my Higher Power and allow Him to diirect my path. He seems to come up with much better ideas than I do. It is a good day when we are on the same page, instead of me wandering around with a closed mind and a narrow outlook, trying to find what is not there or trying to make something out of nothing.

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Whoops, have been posting under the wrong post. It is all defects, but this one is about today.

Just for today, I will accept my day and not beat myself up with should have and could haves. I will allow myself a day off. I only get out of a day what I put into it. I didn't put much into my day, so don't have any expectations for the remaining 24 hours.

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Just for today, I am trying to let go of the anger I felt when I got a prank phone call. I felt sad too that so many people are being taken in by these jokers and telling people that they are the government calling. I have since learned that two other friends have received the same call. I have the phone # and thinking of calling Ma Bell because they are disrespecting her service and/or the police, although I am not sure they will do anything. I am feeling responsible and feel like I should do something.

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It finally got hot today. My son came in after work and said he felt like he was suffering from heat stroke. He is a landscaper and there is no getting away from the sun. I didn't realize I missed posting yesterday.

Guess it should have been, just for today, I won't forget to post. I will go on line and share with others.

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Just for today, I will forgive myself for things undone and things unsaid. This is a one day at a time program, and each day is a new beginning.

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Just for today, I will not take on 'stuff' that is not mine. I will allow the freedom of recovery give me the peace and serenity I need for today. Just for today, I choose to let go and let God. I ask that my clarity of thought and perception be healed so I will be aware of what I can change and what I can't change.

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Just for today, I will trust the process. As long as I am connected to my Higher Power, things will turn out as they should be, not always as I would have them be.

After talking to my friend for about 90 minutes, I read her the Serenity Prayer for quitting smoking from NicA, Nicotine Anonymous. She found a lot of comfort in it. She just got out of the hospital and was in ICU a couple of times this month.

When we finished talking, I read her today's reading from Courage to Change and the reading from In God's Care by Karen Casey. They both referenced what we had been talking about.

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Just for today, I will appreciate what I have. I may suffer from chronic pain and fatigue, but I am so much more fortunate that a lot of others. Seeing my sister in the hospital, I thought, "How boring this must be." She can't talk because of the tube down her throat feeding her and the oxygen. Her toe is infected, although it has healed a lot. He skin was dry and flaky and her hands, feet, and legs were swollen. My feet may swell, but I am not in the hospital.

As they say, "Put some gratitude in your attitude."

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Just for today, I will do what I need to do. My God meets my needs, so the energy is there for the taking. The good orderly direction is there and though I sometimes look at it and ask, "My will or God's." I was grateful that I followed up with my thought of going to see my sister as she didn't have a good day. I was grateful to see that her leg was better and that she was attended to. It kept coming to mind and I couldn't give it rest until I saw for myself that she was okay. When I turn my day over to my God's, I have to think of it as His Will, unless proved otherwise. I know that I can get in my own way and discount something and want to do it myself, so just in case, I say the Serenity Prayer and stop and have a wee talk to my God to see that we are on the same page.

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Just for today, I will not put high expectations on myself or others. I need to remind that everyone isn't always able to meet them, certainly not to level others put on us or visa versa. We can be our how hard taskmaster. I think expectations are dooming ourselves and a catalist for resentment.

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Just for today, I will ask for my personal healing, be it my sense of humour, my attitude, my lack of motivation, etc. Through my God, all things are possible. I don't need to continue acting out in my dis-ease. I no longer have to participate in hissy fits and pity parties. I can ask my Higher Power to help me be a better me in today.

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Just for today, I will remember that the Serenity Prayer is a tool that works in recovery when I apply it. As they say, "It works when you work it." It works if I work for it, works better for me. I have to make the effort.

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Just for today, I will try to take care of myself to the best of my ability. That means taking a break and getting myself something to eat. I missed dinner, and I know that isn't good, so need to put some food in my body. I feel a headache coming on, so that is a good sign. Pain, pain, go away. That is what I said this morning before going to sleep. I woke up without my ankles being swollen.

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Just for today, I am willing to do what ever it takes. If I can't find that willingness, I will pray for the willingness to be willing.

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Just for today, I will love the skin I'm in. It may have had some wear and tear over the years, but it is still my skin. For so many years I hated how I looked, always too tall it seemed. I was once told that I couldn't be an Orr, my maiden name, because I wasn't a blond. That really hurt and it stuck with me. I took it on, and yet they were words spoken by someone who I didn't even know, but he knew my dad's two brothers and their family. Be careful of the words you speak, they can make deep scars that take a long time to heal. So grateful for this program and it's healing process.

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Just for today, will remember the word doesn't center around me. I don't have to have the last word. I don't have to be the first one to pick up the phone. I can't let my ego and pride get in the way of my recovery. I must remember where I came from. I have to remember when!!!

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Just for today, I will try not to be stubborn and dig my heels in. I need to be open, flexible, and leave the old selfish, self-centeredness behind.

It is so important to live in today and in the moment. As they say, in the moment has nor room for ego, defiance, resentment, anger, and all those other negative emotions. When I block out the negative, I also prevent the positive energies to flow.

Just for today I will go with the flow. I won't go in my own direction and isolate my soul.

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