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bluidkiti · 01-07-2014, 11:02 AM

Where Did I Go?

Psalm 139:17 and 23-24: “How precious it is, Lord, to realize that you are thinking about me constantly! Search me, O God, and know my heart; test my thoughts. Point out anything you find in me that makes you sad, and lead me along the path of everlasting life” (TLB).

I became so wrapped up in the daily routine of “cranking out” work that I lost me. I didn’t know me, anymore. The person I thought I knew was buried under layers of smoldering ashes. The “together” image I saw in the mirror encased an emotionally dying woman.

It sounds over-dramatic, but it’s true. The question that haunted me was, “Can I be found?” I didn’t know when or if I’d ever come back. Yet, step by step, little by little, God picked up the burned out fragments, repaired them and pieced them back together.

God knew where I was all the time. He never stopped thinking about me. And when the time was right, he re-introduced me to myself. And then when I could handle it, he showed me how to change my self-destructive lifestyle so I wouldn’t get lost again. How great his love!

Father, you know me inside and out.
Please share your thoughts with me.
And help me to be the person I’m capable of becoming.

Joan C. Webb

MajestyJo · 01-07-2014, 05:12 PM

The person that was, is no longer in today. With God's guidance, love, forgiveness, etc. I will no longer be who I am in today.

bluidkiti · 01-07-2014, 10:02 PM

Exactly Jo. My husband and I talked about this recently.

01-07-2014, 11:02 AM	#1
bluidkiti Administrator Join Date: Aug 2013 Posts: 73,858	Where Did I Go? Where Did I Go? Psalm 139:17 and 23-24: “How precious it is, Lord, to realize that you are thinking about me constantly! Search me, O God, and know my heart; test my thoughts. Point out anything you find in me that makes you sad, and lead me along the path of everlasting life” (TLB). I became so wrapped up in the daily routine of “cranking out” work that I lost me. I didn’t know me, anymore. The person I thought I knew was buried under layers of smoldering ashes. The “together” image I saw in the mirror encased an emotionally dying woman. It sounds over-dramatic, but it’s true. The question that haunted me was, “Can I be found?” I didn’t know when or if I’d ever come back. Yet, step by step, little by little, God picked up the burned out fragments, repaired them and pieced them back together. God knew where I was all the time. He never stopped thinking about me. And when the time was right, he re-introduced me to myself. And then when I could handle it, he showed me how to change my self-destructive lifestyle so I wouldn’t get lost again. How great his love! Father, you know me inside and out. Please share your thoughts with me. And help me to be the person I’m capable of becoming. Joan C. Webb __________________ "No matter what you have done up to this moment, you get 24 brand-new hours to spend every single day." --Brian Tracy AA gives us an opportunity to recreate ourselves, with God's help, one day at a time. --Rufus K. When you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on. --Franklin D. Roosevelt We stay sober and clean together - one day at a time! God says that each of us is worth loving.

01-07-2014, 05:12 PM	#2
MajestyJo Super Moderator Join Date: Aug 2013 Location: Hamilton, ON Posts: 25,078	The person that was, is no longer in today. With God's guidance, love, forgiveness, etc. I will no longer be who I am in today. __________________ Love always, Jo I share because I care.

01-07-2014, 10:02 PM	#3
bluidkiti Administrator Join Date: Aug 2013 Posts: 73,858	Exactly Jo. My husband and I talked about this recently. __________________ "No matter what you have done up to this moment, you get 24 brand-new hours to spend every single day." --Brian Tracy AA gives us an opportunity to recreate ourselves, with God's help, one day at a time. --Rufus K. When you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on. --Franklin D. Roosevelt We stay sober and clean together - one day at a time! God says that each of us is worth loving.

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