In recovery our participation is required. I thought not to drink was a tall order indeed, and that enough was already being asked of me by me agreeing to do this, and as a result the rest should be given to me because of my enormous sacrifice. Doesn't work that way. We can read, analyze and ponder the steps of recovery all we want. After all the steps of recovery are considered to be suggestions. This is only because of the defiance we all have , but really what they are is instructions on how to find what we don't have. Until we do the actions that are part of each step we won't know the power that's contained within them. No one can do them for us, nor can we be made to them. We have got to want to do them. Now that is a very tall order indeed.