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bluidkiti · 11-28-2016, 04:36 AM

MajestyJo · 11-28-2016, 05:53 PM

I'm the type of alcoholic that when I stop drinking, for all practical purposes, that's where my alcoholism begins. - Bob D.

- Alkiespeaks

This struck a cord with me. I stole a glass of communion wine at 10 years old. There was only about an inch in the bottom of a goblet. I have told the story many times. I will always remember the feeling when it hit bottom. It was the feeling that I was searching for all my life. The only problem was it took more and more to reach the feeling and then it stopped working and all I got was pain.

That aaaaahhhhhhhh!!!! feeling when it hits bottom and you know everything is going to be alright. I never had another drink of alcohol until I was married at the age of 21. My second drink I didn't like, it was Cherry Brandy and it was gross and I vowed I would never drink again. Famous last words. It wasn't 10 years later when I met my scond husband, it was at 10 years old that I think was when I became an alcoholic. It is the thinking behind the substance we use, that is the cause of our dis-ease. The substance is but a symbol of it and the real problem is me.

I can't metabolize alcohol like normal folk. Some is good, more is better, or so I thought. I would drink until I overflowed and there was no more left. Then I realized, it wasn't me talking, it was my dis-ease. When I was using (people, places and things), it was not me who governed my actions, with no thought of being accountable or responsible.

11-28-2016, 04:36 AM	#1
bluidkiti Administrator Join Date: Aug 2013 Posts: 73,827	I Drank For. . . Idrank.jpg __________________ "No matter what you have done up to this moment, you get 24 brand-new hours to spend every single day." --Brian Tracy AA gives us an opportunity to recreate ourselves, with God's help, one day at a time. --Rufus K. When you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on. --Franklin D. Roosevelt We stay sober and clean together - one day at a time! God says that each of us is worth loving.

11-28-2016, 05:53 PM	#2
MajestyJo Super Moderator Join Date: Aug 2013 Location: Hamilton, ON Posts: 25,078	I'm the type of alcoholic that when I stop drinking, for all practical purposes, that's where my alcoholism begins. - Bob D. - Alkiespeaks This struck a cord with me. I stole a glass of communion wine at 10 years old. There was only about an inch in the bottom of a goblet. I have told the story many times. I will always remember the feeling when it hit bottom. It was the feeling that I was searching for all my life. The only problem was it took more and more to reach the feeling and then it stopped working and all I got was pain. That aaaaahhhhhhhh!!!! feeling when it hits bottom and you know everything is going to be alright. I never had another drink of alcohol until I was married at the age of 21. My second drink I didn't like, it was Cherry Brandy and it was gross and I vowed I would never drink again. Famous last words. It wasn't 10 years later when I met my scond husband, it was at 10 years old that I think was when I became an alcoholic. It is the thinking behind the substance we use, that is the cause of our dis-ease. The substance is but a symbol of it and the real problem is me. I can't metabolize alcohol like normal folk. Some is good, more is better, or so I thought. I would drink until I overflowed and there was no more left. Then I realized, it wasn't me talking, it was my dis-ease. When I was using (people, places and things), it was not me who governed my actions, with no thought of being accountable or responsible. __________________ Love always, Jo I share because I care.

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