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I just joined this forum. I am a recovering addict and alcoholic since 1988. I had to go on anti depressants in 2006 due to a depression brought about by the menopause. Since then I have been on and off them and obsessing about them and alternative therapies to make me feel better. However 9 months ago I decided just to take the medication and not think about it. The doctor has given me Diazapam on a few occasions and now I want to take it all the time. I am prescribed to take it 2.5mgs when I feel I need to. Lately I've started to obsess about this drug and fight not to take it for the wrong reasons. That and painkillers with codeine. I think about the painkillers a lot but don't buy them. they have 30mgs of codeine - now I don't know if I have a problem or I am making a problem up for myself. that's what I do. I make problems and issues out of nothing. My marriage is in the process of breaking up, I have a severely autistic mentally retarded son and my mother died last week. I am the bread winner in the family that is breaking up and I feel bitter and angry about that and struggle there too