Forgetting the Past

[MajestyJo]

Went to a therapist at 6 years sober. I hadn't been in her office long when she asked me, "Why haven't you forgiven yourself?" i was shocked, looked at her in surprise and said, 'i never thought to ask." To me, what I had done was unforgivable. I think I hoped my God would forgive me at the Pearly Gates, that was then, not now. i had been abused for many years and it took a long time for my self-acceptance and self-confidence to return.

As I shared tonight, I knew I was an addict, in denial about being aan alcoholic, until I could accept my alcoholism as being part of my addiction, I stayed stuck. i stayed clean and sober, but it was lip service that I paid until I found out what I wanted, and it ended up their program got me. I used alcohol like I used prescription drugs, food, men, and work.

I had one reason to go to AA. I had one reason to go to NA. I have 3-33 reasons to go to Al-Anon, family and friends who relapsed or never made it to the doors of recovery.