Strength

[MajestyJo]

Sunday, February 23, 2014

You are reading from the book The Language of Letting Go

Strength

We don't always have to be strong. Sometimes, our strength is expressed in being vulnerable. Sometimes, we need to fall apart to regroup and stay on track.

We all have days when we cannot push any harder, cannot hold back self-doubt, cannot stop focusing on fear, cannot be strong.

There are days when we cannot focus on being responsible. Occasionally we don't want to get out of our pajamas. Sometimes, we cry in front of people. We expose our tiredness, irritability, or anger.

Those days are okay. They are just okay.

Part of taking care of ourselves means we give ourselves permission to "fall apart" when we need to. We do not have to be perpetual towers of strength. We are strong. We have proven that. Our strength will continue if we allow ourselves the courage to feel scared, weak, and vulnerable when we need to experience those feelings.

Today, God, help me to know that it is okay to allow myself to be human. Help me not to feel guilty or punish myself when I need to "fall apart."

Had a hard time accepting things that were less than perfect and I didn't live up to my expectations. I didn't see it as part of my humanness. I just saw it as failure and being less than.

I tried to do things on my own, not knowing or acknowledging my God and going to Him and draw strength from Him. I felt it was my job to do, I was responsible, because I had been blamed or shamed into thinking that if any thing went wrong it was my fault.

I had been raised in the church, and never lost my faith, just didn't believe God had faith in me because I was a failure. I didn't know strength, courage and direction was available to me.

When I look back on my life, I found that I had strength of purpose, a desire to exceed and do things well, and didn't give much thought that it came from my God, I thought of it as my Inner Self, not knowing that my God resided in the same place.