Prayer request

[1dayatatime06]

Asking for prayers for healing my marriage from infidelity. The disease of alcoholism and addiction have crept up and are bringing feelings of terrible insecurities and fear back again. I'm so confused as to why this is happening now and if it's a sign from God that my 30 year marriage is over or the devil stirring up a pot of misery. It seems no matter what I do or don't do,he,my husband, won't give me love and it hurts. It's been 14 years without physical love and I'm growing weary of being turned down and put down. I'm sticking close to my sponsor and trying to stick with God as well. I believe in my heart that he's cheating and our marriage is over,I am doing what I can to know I did all I could possibly do to recover it. Thank you so much.