Courage to Obey

[MajestyJo]

Obey is a word I never liked. I certainly didn`t make it part of my vocabulary unless it was directed at someone else.

I tended to see at it as an old tape. We are each individuals and what is right for someone, may not be good for someone else.

I could see the 10 Commandments, but so much of my abuse and thinking behind my addiction was based on old tapes, trying to please everyone and because I couldn`t do it, took it on as my fault and not measuring up. People told me what to believe and what to do, and they expected me to follow and obey, yet by doing so, I became ill. This mixed messages overwhelmed me and I didn`t know what to do and generally ended up doing nothing or setting out to prove everyone was wrong and I was right.

There is no right or wrong. It is what is good for me in today. I obey my God and His direction, as long as I am open to hearing and receiving. Because of mixed messages and abuse in the past, I get a thought and tend to discount it and not believe, and it has been a long process to get out of myself so my God can work through me and I can hear His Will for my life.