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[MajestyJo]

My thoughts when I entered the doors of recovery was, "How come I didn't know about this earlier." I realized it was because I hadn't been ready and I had been playing the blaming game and it was about everyone else, but me!

It was so comforting to know that there where others who thought like I did, been where I had been, who had the same feelings and were understanding.

Even then, I had to learn to identify, not compare. I had to stop with "Well I didn't do that." I don't like beer, so I can't be an alcoholic. It didn't matter that I could match my ex-husband drink for drink, while he drank beer and I drank rye and coca-cola. The ultimate worst was doing without the Coca-Cola, it was my first addiction. Now because of my diabetes, I can't have the real thing and the Diet is worse for me health wise than the original, because of the chemicals.

The thought that I was no longer alone, gave me the hope and strength to stay clean and sober, one day at a time. My doctor dictated a letter when I saw him last week and said, "She is aware, she know how her medication affects her body, and doesn't abuse it. If she doesn't need it, she doesn't take it. It gave me warm fuzzies getting the affirmation from him.