Every Addiction

[MajestyJo]

Sorry, don`t know how to access the older posts and will try to start again in November.

Not sure if it was a much needed time out, my disease trying to block me, or my God having me look elsewhere, for my disease is all encompassing. It makes itself known in many ways. Like making the chocolate `diabetic`pudding and eating all of it, even though I ate 3 bowls, during the course of the evening. It was gone by the time I went to bed.

In looked at my account at the library and found that I had 30 books out. I had found an author I like, ordered everything I hadn`t read, and they all came in at once. This was after, I had ordered another author the week before.

As they say, it isn`t the drinking and drugging, it is the thinking behind my dis-ease. Sometimes I let some static in, and I disrupt the air waves. I block my direct line to my Higher Power and my disease, keeps looking for that door of opportunity to sabotage my recovery.