Chipping Away at Defects of Character

[MajestyJo]

Stubborn«»Willing

I can certainly identify. I had a difficult time posting on the site today. I had hoped to go to my Al-Anon meeting, and had many plans for today, but I had to be willing to let go and do what I needed to do for my health. I wanted to be stubborn and not come home and just fight the pain and ignore it, but it wouldn't go away.

I didn't have the right inhaler with me. I had to take a time out and sit on a bench and do a little prayer and meditation. I was going to go to the hairdressers, but tomorrow is another day.

My sister called me yesterday and I called her back but couldn't talked to her. Along with that stubborn willingness, I need acceptance. I forgot it was her birthday until I was talking to her. I am glad that I listened to the voice that told me to return her call instead of being stubborn and letting her call again because she never left a message. Not sure if that would be stubborn or just being in a snit, no matter what you call it, not a very nice place to be, feeling bad or not.

I turned my day over and asked for help. Again, praying for the willingness to be willing. Willing to be other than to where I was at, which was not a very good place. I got stressed just taking my blood pressure. I went back down after dinner to take it again and stressed myself more. When I came home, I recognized the fear and had to turn it over, and the pain lessened and I was able to finish posting. I will to will God`s Will for me in today.