Chipping Away at Defects of Character

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will be responsible. When I feel good and get the opportunity to go, I am gone and generally over do things. I generally pay for a couple of days afterward. I have to choose what I can or cannot do, knowing how my body will react afterward. Like going up to see my sister on the bus, I always hurt afterward, but I felt it was worth it. I haven't heard from her since she went home. They have a day care and you don't want to phone when babies and little ones are sleeping. She probably rests at the same time. I was hoping she would pick up the phone and call me when she had a few moments to herself.

My service sponsor use to say, "I never call my sponsees if they don't call me." Before she passed away, I was sponsoring her and I called her if I didn't hear from her, even if it was just to leave a message so she knew I cared.

I am not only responsible for helping others, I am responsible for my own life and welfare. I need to make healthy and responsible decisions. Each day, I have to do what I call the Step 1, 2, 3 Waltz. I can't, my God can, just for today, I choose to let Him.