Chipping Away at Defects of Character

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will be honest with myself. I was a little dishonest yesterday by saying I was alright and didn't need to go to the hospital. When I talked to the medical student from my doctor's office this morning, she said I should have gone and if it happens again, go!

I have an appointment with my heart specialist on the 8th. So will make a point of letting him know.

I know better, I was dressed and ready to go out the door and couldn't bring myself to go. The voice of the intern the last time I went kept running through my head. Why are you here. I said I had chest pain and pain down my arm, otherwise I wouldn't be here. I justified not going because I didn't have arm pain, just my heart doing a thump, thump, just a little too fast.

Just for today, I will be honest and not pull on the blanket of denial. If I get pain, I will go to the hospital.