Chipping Away at Defects of Character

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I don't have a clue, I think I could take the whole list of 'defects' after, taking a header into my bathtub. I feel stupid, which is dumb in and of itself. I am sore, but I accept that I need TLC, even though my son said that "You just have to tough it out Mom." I wanted to hit him, so I think there is some anger there too. The longer I sat, the worse I felt, and I am still shaking, I am having problems without making a lot of typing errors. It is so strange, I just have no patience with myself when I make typing errors. It is something I did all my life, and don't like making what I call silly errors. So just turning everything over to my God, asking for His help. I should have asked my son for help instead of trying to pick up my deodorant which was behind the toilet.

I am starting to nod off, so it looks like I need to go to bed whether I want to or not.

I think I hid the back of my head, but I am not sure, I know the rest of my body is hurting, so I figured if I came online, I would feel better for being here.

This feels like the chaos going on with my body. It is good that I can go within and find peace.